lets talk

figuring out on my own

2010-01-19T00:23:00.000+08:00

someone like you

2010-01-18T01:57:00.000+08:00

Look, I know you probably want this too, but I’mma say it first… I know we’re not in a relationship but we’re supposeably talking. I like it.. But I think we need a little break. I just feel that its best for us. I know I told you I like you, and you said it back (I was surprised but happy at the same time; really excited lol.) But I don’t know if you really meant it and how you feel now.. You can say so much over the phone. (I think you tell every girl the same thing; what they want to hear.) Ugh I’m just getting mixed emotions and I sort of liked it when we first met, but see, I think you just used me; wanted someone to talk to. I talked to you. Hmm, I don’t wanna get hurt again or more than I actually already am. So I’mma just let you go right now, I’ll be in less pain than I would be if I were to keep doing what I do. But you’re kind of telling me the exact same thing, you don’t want this anymore either… You’re gonna find someone new eventually, maybe soon.. Like maybe Saturday. I’m not jealous okay? I just don’t feel happy or I mean really comfortable knowing you can be hitting on other girls, I mean I know we’re not in a relationship and all again, which makes perfect sense for you to go on ahead and do that, like I may sort of flirt with some guys but I don’t take it far, because I knoww I sorta have this thing with YOU, now I really don’t think so. But yea, there’s your opportunity to go talk to someone new, you probably already have met. Like on Friendster, where we met (wow, yea people.. I know what you’re probably thinking.) We fuckin connected right away though.. Hmph wtf, haha. Anywaaays, I really don’t think we should talk anymore. But I don’t have to tell you because it seems pretty clear to me that you’re already trying to get rid of me..

-taken from someone's tumblr

again i go unnoticed

2010-01-13T01:54:00.000+08:00

"I wonder if you still notice me. I wonder if you know that I still care about you. And if all the answers are no then I’m glad that we’re just friends."

I'm not saying it was your fault Although you could have done more

2010-01-08T22:26:00.001+08:00

sunday pouring

2009-08-31T00:59:00.002+08:00

Can u tell I'm faking it?
But i want to be myself
A counterfeit disposition
Cant be good for my health
So many different faces
Depending on the different phases
My personality changes
I'm a chameleon
There's more than one dimension
I can feel you and attract attention
Camouflage my nature
Let me demonstrate....

If you bore me then I'm comfortable
If u interest me, I'm scared
My attraction paralyzes me
No courage to show my true colors that exist
But I want to be the real thing
But if you catch my eye can't be authentic
The ones I loathe are the ones that know me best
-No Doubt

went to baybeats the past 2 days ago
I must say that this year baybeats wasnt so entertaining
they really should add in more various genres of music
met alot of familiar faces on friday night there
but not for saturday's
too many YPs and hardcore ppl

ohyaa aku jealous banget!!!
hahaha

just a little late,you found me you found me

2009-08-21T23:56:00.001+08:00

In the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am
Who I'm not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me
-the fray

in my case how long i can be next to her

LADY GAGA SEE GI JOE EAT TEKKA STROLL BUGIS

2009-08-15T00:38:00.006+08:00

so wednesday night we spent listening to lady gaga at fort canning

i must say the girls who came there mostly are HOTwe watched 2 movies in a row on friday!!!!

so to watch GI JOE & UP!!!!

I skipped my afternoon meeting!!!!

FYP was a SUCCESS!!!!

next month presenting at NTU!!!!

fuhh I feel very proud and honoured for the first time in my life!!!

radd brought me to tekka to eat tohsei

i was like a foreigner whose so jakon at that time haha!!!

growing old beats dying young

dont ya think so

SPOILT ME SILLY RADD!!!!

2009-08-06T23:39:00.003+08:00

bad days finally come to an end
cos why??

cos I have a new addition to my collection
all thanks to my DEAR RADD!!!!!she got me STARSCREAM!!!!
and best of all its the color and design that I wanted!!!!
OKAY RADD!!!!! I REALLYYYY LOVEEEEEE YOU LIKE MUACKSSSS!!!!muahahahaha

ps:I almost hug and jump you out of joy in the train!!!hahaha
STARSCREAM!!!!!!!!!

and oh the bday card says:

WHY SHOULDNT I JUST SPOIL YOU SILLY?

;)

I HEARD IT ALL BEFORE

2009-08-06T00:34:00.002+08:00

it all make sense now
how things I picture it to be the opposite
friends you say they meant not to betray
but indeed the chances are still there
no wonder things are falling into place for you
I salute you for that
and for now I shall be in silence
just waiting for something to get back at you
dont worry I dont care what others say about me
I just dont care at all now
cos the truth is I know my limits and I've unmasked you
so I wont play your games no more

treat her right will ya

OVERPOWERED BY STRESS

2009-08-03T00:49:00.002+08:00

DAMN IT MADDERFUCKER!!!!!
my FYP prototype doesnt seem to be working!!!!
shit shits shit shits!!!

on a brighter note
spent my wkend watching movie Moonwalker
with my classmates
very rare in deed going out with them
and best of all get to watch at GV VIVO
been a long time I've been there
and head to Ion after that
where me and fana spend 20mins lost getting to the toilet
met AJA and the khai brothers from Telecast
abit of catching up at SB Ion
mayb the next chillout place for us next time
surveying some hoodies and bag pack for sha's bday
nabei my bday no one buy me anything
give me back pain ade la hahaha
sent fana home after that since its late
and surprisingly when I reach home
no one was ard
its been like this every wkend i guess
everyone was out late

3more weeks to holiday
2more weeks to FYP presentation
1more day to complete my FYP report

2009-07-18T14:35:00.001+08:00

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out of
I'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words.

silly friday

2009-07-18T06:03:00.002+08:00

Its 6 in the morning
just came back from night riding with my friends
just to clear off my stress Im having lately
everything a mess now

I wish to get back to the start
where we are just strangers
people dont know we're communicating

I really hate the way you treat me in the first place
sweet words
oh sweet words
yes you did made the first move on me
and yes I fell for it
really I fell for it
cant believe I've open my heart for nothing

what I constantly feel right now is total HUMILIATION
you made a scene which I hardly foresee it
everyone thinks Im the one at fault now
dont you have any sympathy for me?
I HAVE to put up a very hard fake smile all day long
joke around with the guys as if nothing had happen

thanks to you
I have a reputation of 2 face in school
hellooo misery
Im back

TGIF and Matreps Synchronization

2009-07-11T01:25:00.003+08:00

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!

its friday but the guys wanted to study-.-

so with no plan I asked who else right?

hehehe

since I wanted to look for a ripcurl backpack

the old school backpack type

not those turtle squared type

and yeaa wanted to head to town but someone was hungry

and wanted to eat at beach road

so i dont mind since its cheap hehehe

save duit ku:)

cos i had pastamania in mind if we had head to town directly

oh we saw alot of mats walking synchronizing

even when I'm on the way home from the train station siolxsxsx-.-

I cant help myself but to laugh

seriously eventhough I may offend them but what the hack

you PUSSYYYYY!!!!

they should really video record themselves while walking

first stop reached town we head to the new shopping mall

at somerset

the structure of the mall cool gilerrrr

the food outlets available there wasnt so bad

I think having desserts there will be a best place to chill and relax

great ambience ^^

didnt find any bags I wanted in the end-.-

head to cineleisure next to awww ourselves at transformers figurines

and NO you cant take my BEE away

radd will be blacklisted from entering my room

since she had been a good company

we treat ourselves to gelato

sedap kan? pasal FREEE!!!

hahaha

we MUNCH,we LAUGH,we had FUN

credits to radd

I took pics from yours^^V

R.I.P Shikin 1991-2009

2009-07-03T22:49:00.002+08:00

You used to follow me around
went family bbq,cycling and have fun
like what normal families would do
back then we were in our primary days
how I miss those days
like what a normal family should be
full of laughters,smiles and happiness
yet you always be the silent type
and defensive type
you grew strong and stronger
back then when we were kids
me and your sister would always pick on you
cause your the youngest among us
and when our lives begin its journey to puberty
we grew apart and sadly we hardly spoke

how I wish to ask you something like
having a simple conversation just to catch up
knowing the difference between our worlds
but now its not possible

Your sudden eternal departure has left us deep
so deep that I nearly cry in the hallway of my class
my heart is very soft when it comes in dealing with deaths
without goodbye or last words
and there you left us

we're related by blood
and losing you is like losing portion of our blood

REST IN PEACE MY BELOVED COUSIN
MAY GOD BLESS YOUR SOUL
1991-2009

FOOL-ED

2009-07-01T23:33:00.002+08:00

karma, I hate it
what goes around comes around

isnt it ironic it all began
just simple words for me to fall for
shouldnt have led me on
its just so WRONG

meeting fana family

2009-06-29T23:22:00.002+08:00

okayy the guy in the stormtrooper suit is her dad!!
so cool right?
hahaha
i super excited when he jakon-ly wanted to appear in the webcam
yeaa her family kinda cool
her little bro so super hyper active
wanted her mum to adopt me hahaha!!!
her sis most of the time there doing silly acts

so most of my friends are LOA
even fana too
meaning they are quarantined for 1 week
so boringgg attending school when your friends are not

2 days-transformer 2 and town

2009-06-27T11:30:00.012+08:00

blurry pictures
happy smiles
smelly scents
silly actions
thurs went to watch transformer 2 with her
fri went around town searching for nini's present and also my earpiece
I still cant believe I helped radd to swipe away something
from her pants along orchard
well theres always a first I guess hahaha

MY SUPERB BDAY BASH!!!!!

2009-06-20T02:28:00.009+08:00

Ive been undergoing stress like dunno when
but today seem to be the happiest day I ever had
thanks to my friends and those who wished me
rara thanks for your bday cake and spermy balloons
totally related to your course Im sure ily :)

radd!!! thanks to your unexpecting carol bday wish together with nini and your mum

you ladies do know how to make a man happy

syirahh my bishan friend is the first person to wish me!!!!

been awhile since we hangout together

our problems are always the same thats why we cant talk to each other often

anyway your still more mature than me as always syirah-san :D

hazam muke sinister.

the people who I thought would never but did

joel the skinny tall cina fren of mine

fir my partner in crime to woo at girls

basket..... all waiting and planning for me

guys taking advantage of me during the sabo operation

fana cant you see Im scared??(before being thrown in the pond)

muke cuwak siol.hahaha

they laugh

and laugh

imagine falling on lots of pebbles

and again

soaking wet

see Im happy

they are happy

we are HAPPY

credits to sha(i swear i just know her a day ago)

the end.

school

2009-06-18T13:51:00.002+08:00

its been 2 days I didnt attend class
Im kinda lost of keeping track of school time
past 3 days ago my time schedule was so packed
I left my house ard 6am and came home ard 12midnight
early morning had car lessons,afternoon had training
and evening had band session till late
damn tired and add on to the burden is FYP
because I didnt attend class,my friend made a move on cute
damn youuuu
oh well cant blame him cos cute is always cute
every guy will want to make a move on her cos shes cute
I wont be coming for next week's class so yea I miss the chance again

right now Im in the library trying to do some self study
of what I missed this week lessons
expecting a warning letter soon for not turning up for classes

2009-06-17T00:40:00.002+08:00

damn at the world
no matter how hard you change
you still be you not the change you
cos the world keep on revolving
even if you die
it keep on revolving
just like time
again and again
will never stop and never will

I've been trying to be better as days passes by
surpassing the people in my team as much as I could
but other people think Im the lowest among all
because of size
size really means everything to the world
it makes you to stand out
the world is unfair I know

thats why I keep on moving forward
getting stronger each day
more hatred keep on building inside of me
just to seek revenge on the world

SCHOOL's BACK

2009-06-16T00:54:00.002+08:00

I cant believe that the whole day
I've been criticizing Matreps(malay undercrotch gangster)
see how bored I get in school
I will never understand why they like to wear their cap
by not putting it fully onto their head
if a wind blow away your cap wouldnt you be looking so dumb
anyway the fact that you are already dumb looking
wear a 3/4 tight jeans,sleeveless button shirts,
small square little sling bag,colorful shoes
the ever trendy fashion in Matreps
ohhh not forgetting their "dance"
shuffle if Im not wrong they call it
during weekends you can spot those underage kids
some even older yet stoopid oldies
at marina sq. big stairs where they practise their so-call "cool"moves
they are really degenerate kind of people who bring shame to our own society
I myself feel so embarass of their actions
cant you dance somewhere in private?
where away from the public
if you wanna dance in public at least do a good one
dont you have a mirror to reflect your "dance" moves??
ohyaa you dont have any mirror cos you love to "dance" in public

so if you have any friends who I just described earlier
please dont let me see you with them
or even come talking to me
seriously I will ignore you and then criticize openly
I wont even have second thoughts of how your friend will react
cos Im just being me
and sarcasm is my entertainment for people like Matrep
hahahahaha

reminiscence and goodbyes

2009-06-14T14:56:00.002+08:00

BUSY JUNE!!!

2009-06-09T21:44:00.003+08:00

so melfraps gonna have their first acoustic set
held at fullerton starbucks on 20th june
its gonna be a chill and laid back session for us
thanks to Ash Annajudgeapril for giving us the slot
cos his band performing at esplanade with deputy siren that day
bands who I know playing acoustic set on that day are
Telecast,Barricade,Faceoff and more
not sure if Sallys playing too
but wan said he will be playing too
mayb another band??
anyway Im gonna need to borrow his guitar for the set
and so this will be the first gig I come to play without carrying any guitar
hoorayy for me!!!

yes yes finally have all the pics of sports camp
Im too lazy to post it all here
can view them at my facebook
after going thru all the pics
I realized that I really made alot of new friends in that camp
eventhough it sucks
but we did gained something in the end

no.4

2009-06-06T00:32:00.003+08:00

had sports camp for the last 3 days
totally no related to any sports during those 3days
just like normal team bonding camp
disappointed btw
my team was like the most fearful team compare to the others
maybe our team was the only yr 3 team
the camp program was rather disorganized
was expecting to have high elements or rock climbing activities
but we still won alot of games in school and in sentosa
made new cute friends at the end of the camp
like bella who loves to call me no.4
cos we compete against each other in dog n bone-.-
we won 2nd placing in the camp too
despite being the worst in cheering and dancing hahaha
pictures will be up soon
most probably going to sentosa this coming tues
with the guys and the new friends we made in camp
hope to see them in school
:)

CAMP and RUN

2009-06-01T02:27:00.003+08:00

ITS THE HOLIDAYS!!!
sentosa is a must too
so since my school is having camp for 3days
might as well join in since its my last yr
and held at SENTOSA
the usual people will be going too
it will be definitely fun

Im also participating in the RUN
held at the end of this month
thats why I've been busy training
it maybe just 5km but the race will be a fast one
cos alot of familiar faces taking part too
hopefully I wont be the last batch of ppl reaching the finishing line
hahahaha

FEELING CAFE DEL MOAR SYLE

2009-05-30T13:19:00.002+08:00

those were the days
these are the kind of tunes I would be listening to
lazying in the sun with my drinks by the side
till the wee hours

2009-05-30T00:45:00.002+08:00

I was abit dissappointed of how CS performed today
the lineup had changed
they surely have improve alot
but I miss the 'real' identity of CS
their intro song from mad caddies to me didnt suit them
Lal may come from a skapunk band but seriously
the choice of song is not suitable for CS
alot of ppl were like lost during their set
its like watching a normal ska band performing??
they should play more originals than covers
and they should really cover no doubt songs
like the last time or play their old songs fully
to me its no point of having the best musicians but
the tunes is not really u
I hope tmr's set will be a better one
and LOOVE was entertaining!!!
though I dislike their slow songs
I almost fell asleep!!!
still they entertained the crowd in the end with their
fast tempo songs
and the first ever band to go off the stage into the crowd

I almost wanna beat up jubz before I left esp
seriously he was fucking irritating to call me tue
its a public place for god damn it!!!
he was lucky to have his gf there by his side
if not I would beat the hell out of him
seriously I hate this kind of childish act
proud to have a bike huh?
see if u can make it home or not one day eh
CB
kalau ade kerete takpe
nie motor je-.-
accident mati teros bodoh sial

hahaha
okayy Im full of rage nowadays
so dunt piss me off
I dunt care if ur a friend or not
and my fake smile will fade off soon
so just be warned:)

2009-05-28T23:52:00.003+08:00

everyone's like that early in the morning
mundane days
last day to see cute before the holidays

2009-05-28T00:16:00.002+08:00

fyp was great today
we had our presentation done
to our potential customers from various companies
all around the world
lots of compliecated qns being asked
luckily our advisors were there to help out
the food was great too
had seconds thirds and so on
hahaha

had blood donation in skool after that
saved me the effort to travel to outram this wkend
ohh and I also enter the bone marrow program too
the procedure mayb painful but I wanna experience sumthing new
:)

ohh yeaa currently Im low in blood now
not sure how will it affect me tmr as I have a long day ahead
got car lesson at 8am,skool after that and training major cardio in the evening

finally Im able to talk with cute
mayb isit bcos we accidentally met at ktm the other day??
able to start a conversation the day after otw to the sports complex
where she had her floorball training and I with my cardio training
another eyecandy pops out:)

2009-05-26T23:34:00.002+08:00

2 UTs I took had gone terribly wrong
3/4 of the pages were blanked
so yadey yadaaa confirm 2 F grade coming soon
conclusion: I SCREWED

weird how things turn up to be
I did put alot of effort in this sem
but I gain nothing in the end

plssss let tmr be a good day for me
I hate how things turn up currently
and dont ask me silly questions abt other ppl
I have no interest or whatsoever
unless I have benefits from it

2009-05-24T15:00:00.002+08:00

days getting more and more fucked up
woke up this morning and found that my hp disfunction
WTF!!!!
all my schedules are in it
practically every upcoming things I need to do are listed only there
training,fyp meetups,gigs and etc etc.
my hp is like my other half u see
without it Im like lost SERIOUSLYYY

freaking exp for the deposit of repair
cost 25bucks excluding the final payment for the repair
not sure how I will come up with repair cost
which is 80-150bucks they said
CB!!!!!
and if u guys remember last yr almost exactly a yr ago
same shit happened again
except this time I didnt do anything to my hp?!
it just shut down.FUCK!!!

so if u guys text me dont forget to tell me who u are
cos Im using a temp phone now
:(

2009-05-22T23:16:00.002+08:00

is there any normal girl i can talk to?
at least who can take me to a deeper conversation
know me more and i know u more thingy

my past entries had been so sluckyy rite
fuck to the people i tot i knew
blame the world for changing me

pls dont ask whats my problem
cos u know i'll wont tell you the truth
the feeling that u try ur best yet its not enough
its always not enough
always

2009-05-17T01:17:00.002+08:00

someone told me that to start something new
you have to lose everything then you're able to
-quoted from sumone's blog

I find that its true if you think abt it
you will have no sense of doubt
think ahead and just do what you want to do
dont care what others will say
cos u only live once

in my 2yrs in RP
I have met alot of ppl
all sorts of different background
some are just irritating while others are worth the experience
now Im left with a yr in this skool
and Im finally awake of how things are
2yrs of trying so hard to be no.1 is enough for me
accepted the fact that I cant be the one
cos I know like every letter of my name
will just be in one of your chapters

blame my ego for this cos Im just like any guy in this world too
u can take his soul but not his pride
for now staying strong till ur gone is all I hope for
goodbye

2009-05-14T01:52:00.002+08:00

I have joined the darkside now
so I dont really care about practically anything
dont talk about your life to me
I dont really wanna know
who cares if your bf is dying
so be it cos look on the brightside u can fuck with sumone new
Im really looking forward for the holidays which is in 2wks time
and again dont talk abt ur bf
cos i dont give a FUCK and hes not related to me in anyway
just make sure u use up his cash b4 he dies
then I'll respect u
hahahahaha

OI TO THE WORLD!!!

2009-05-10T16:04:00.002+08:00

PUKIWAKKKK!!!!
disappointing abes KABOOMMM!!!!
hahahaha

Im getting more and more crazy as day passes by
stress of skool life
cos its mundane as u do the same old stuffs over and over again
today's mothers day so yeaa wishes to all mothers

2009-05-08T22:55:00.002+08:00

SYIMA!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE YOUUU!!!!!!!!
thanks for the treat today
pastamania + starbucks = happy azhar

I almost skip class earlier
but in the end I didnt
cos I was too engross flirting with the gurls in my skool
surprisingly but heyy it DID happened

did I mention that I have a hot gurl in my class??
shes a hardcore cluber but she dont look like one
wat a waste siaakkk
if she wasnt one, I would have dated her
anyway she always like to tap me saying gdbye b4 leaving the class
at least theres a physical connection
hahaha

the guys in my class are planning to go dbO next thurs
mcm paham jeeeee -.-

2009-05-07T00:06:00.002+08:00

today was the most tiring day ever
woke up at 6.30am for my circuit lesson at ubi
then head to skool for fyp meeting after that
the weather was like fucking shitty that morning
ohhh and today we had some racial issues abt boyan
seems like boyan race is the lowest among us here
everyone was like teasing abt this particular race here and there
my family too have issues abt this particular race
my family is a pure javanese race fyi
maybe theres some misunderstanding back in the past btw this 2 race
my grandma used to say to us(grandkids) not to ever marry a boyanise race
they may bring trouble only
so I asked rara if shes a boyanise
turns out shes mixed with alot of race
hahahaha
bagus
so rara I list u down as one of my option in the future arr??
just kidding
:)

2009-05-04T01:40:00.003+08:00

I really feel like pon-ing skool today
but it will be a waste cos today's module is
where I know 3/4 of my classmates
so it will be fun yet a waste of time studying project management

another thing that makes me feel like quiting skool
is due to alot of my friends will be going for ns
and I feel so left out now
the last one standing they would always say
but hey at least my education is being fulfilled

finally I watched wolverine with the TPs people
I rated it 5/5!!!!
a must watch movie for those who love superheroes

till then

2009-05-02T15:00:00.002+08:00

its another boring saturday for me
Im broke so I cant go out today
people if ur observant enough
notice that I dont eat often outside
so note that I dont have money to hangout
GET IT?!

yesterday gig was a blast for us
didnt expect alot of people would want to see us
turns out a large crowd
I think yesterday gig was one of a full house gig I ever seen
packed with people of various cultures
the sound was great and the people are great
I was so hungry after the gig and took off to ct hall
the rest stayed throughout the gig
met di and the last party
do some catching up abt the past and present
I dunno why I felt so stressed up last nite
I start smoking again
and I really smoke alot
smoke the whole pack
Im easily provoked nowadays
so pls dont piss me off FAGGOTS!!!
especially when Im hungry

I dont understand abt girls
when I do something nice doesnt mean I like u
it means I have to do it
no choice
so why oh why girls like to assume so much??

pics of the last performances will be up when I have the pics
so now go and enjoy ur lovely saturday while u still can
MORONS!!!!

2009-05-01T03:52:00.002+08:00

its nearly 4am and I cant sleep
later on gonna have another gig at FAD studio
its an indie gig again
gonna dress up this time
semangat buah durian siaaa hahaha
ohh yess wkend seem to be very boring
Im out of cash and I wanna watch Wolverine!!!!
so how?

fuck to those happy people!!!
life is always unfair
well someone gotta play the role of a bad guy

2009-04-30T00:12:00.003+08:00

okay this music vid is from the sallys-my love
I got mix feelings about this video

first time I saw it I laugh and laugh and laugh till I cry

and secondly spot funny incident that people dont really see it

observe shafiq closely to catch wat I really mean

hahahaha

blame rusdi cos he's the one who spot it hahahaha

enough said cos they're gonna kick my ass if they find out abt this

anyway great music video and the content is very deep

I like the efx they used eventhough its with strings

KUDOS GUYS!!!

2009-04-29T15:20:00.002+08:00

IT WAS FREAKING HOT LAST SAT!!!!
I changed 3 times on that day during the gig
I did enjoy our set eventhough theres some mistakes I made
and thanks to those who came
thanks to radd,ekin and ayid for coming too
I keep on smiling looking at familiar faces while playing
sarah keep on doing the "counting" game to me even during our set -.-

all the bands and people involved

crackerjack,blindmeetsmute,lovejets,melfraps,zozi,the 21s,pinholes and paddlepop

next gig will be at FAD STUDIO

1st may 3-10pm

tix at 10bucks

Slots:

3:30 - 3:50pm Soundcheck

4:00 - 4:30pm The 5th

4:30 - 5:05pm Paddlepop

5:05 - 5:40pm Melfraps!!

5:40 - 6:15pm That Square TV

6:15 - 6:50pm Punchotes

6:50 - 7:25pm Lovejets

7:25 - 8:00pm Crackerjack

8:00 - 8:35pm My Writes

8:35 - 9:10pm The Rejex

9:10 - 9:45pm The Zozi

2009-04-18T00:42:00.002+08:00

I stayed home the entire day
half of my left arm and left body is covered with rashes
-.-
reason why I stayed at home

Im not sure if Im able to go to gym tmr morning
with this kind of rashes ppl wouldnt want to be near me

I received shocking news from a friend whom used to be so closed
I understand her feelings cos our situations we're in were kinda alike
but I just dont understand why she chose the wrong path
shes pretty and used to be strong-willed but now.....
Im really disappointed at myself as a fren though
people do change but change for the better at least
to tell the truth I was really faking myself conversing with u earlier
all the laugh and remarks I made was in the end a LIE
I did all that just not to make u sad or worry
still as a fren,I feel guilty and embarassed
of how I cant really tell u the truth
cos the truth hurts doesnt it?
and u dont want to accept it which is more worst
thank you for sharing this lesson to me
cos I know at least Im not as bad as that guy
pervert u may call me but still I have a sense of pride in me
so thats the difference btw u and me

SENTOSA MUNDANE

2009-04-17T12:48:00.002+08:00

so we the JIbengs went to sentosa
its been awhile since we been there
and same ol shits happen to us again
I guess we're not meant to be together in sentosa
cos everytime we go there things didnt go the way we plan
can u believe it?theres no babes in bikinis out there??
I mean HOT bikini babes
usually theres always at least one when I go there
but yesterday was like WTHHHHHHH
so I conclude that radd is my unlucky charm in sentosa
and to top of things I think that day we're the only malay at sentosa
-.-

we were so bored at sentosa that we left ard 2 plus

head to vivo and bought our lunch had it on skypark

where we lay there for hours

seriously we lay there like nobody business

and seriously radd is getting more bimbotic theses days

and seriously we do alot of stupid things when we're bored

play at the playground,stuff 2 straws in my hair

and radd trying be a dog with that tail hair of hers

we had the best laugh afterall that day

hahahaha

off to PS where she wants to get her tops at cotton on

as least people ard there are pretty to see

so I dunt mind to take my mind off

so in the end we had fun that day

and radd's still growing up till we walk back to her place

she keep on having this ridiculous hiccups

which is so odd the sound she makes

she do things to me wat normal gurls arent suppose to make/show

so plsss raddd be more ladylike to me

I can faint the next time u did "that" to me

and the smell still lingers in my nose damn it!!!!

now Im having major rashes over my body-.-

skool's gonna start on monday

first day class had to start at 9.15am

wth!!!!

out of 4classes why must one start at 9.15am??

cant they all start at 10am as per normal

FUCKSHIT SKOOL!!!!

I SWEAR DOING PRESENTATION FOR 2YRS

REALLY MAKES U IMPROVE TALKING SHITS TO OTHERS

Im not looking forward to skool since theres no hot girls in my course

but Im looking forward to break time as there will be at the foodcourts

Till then

GIG SCHOOL GIG SCHOOL

2009-04-13T00:21:00.002+08:00

Just as my holidays are ending
skool starting and interesting events happening
checkout our upcoming performances
do come down to enjoy and mingle around
Im sure its gonna be great
see you guys there and play safe aite!!!

WTF MONDAY?!

2009-04-06T23:42:00.002+08:00

today is the worst day everrrr!!!!!
had problems during FYP
had trouble during car lesson
and most of the days Im packed with schedules to keep up with

most annoying thing ever is being lectured by ur own parents
I know that almost everyday Im out of the house
from morning to night
but still theres some days I would stay home all day too right?
in fact when Im out I got things that MUST be done
I know that in the past I had disappoint u b4
but hey at least Im trying to be better

AND TO MERILNY OR WHOEVER U ARE
IM NOT ETA's BF!!!!

mosaic 09

2009-03-31T02:20:00.002+08:00

I know this entry is suppose to be 3wks ago
but since I got alot of time to spare why not

so the first day of mosaic music fest started off
with George Duke opening concert!!!!
each band that perform on mosaic were given free tix to watch
the tix I got was from shafiq the sallys aka shafiq gelek
since none of his bandmates were free to watch he ask me to tag along
along with wan from idk which band
I think from a skapunk band if Im not wrong each tix cost 121bucks!!!!
we were treated like VIP on that day
our seats we got were in the middle of the concert hall
I think other mosaic artists were present too in our seating area

I made frens with the concert ushers
they think Im an indon artist
the concert was a freaking 2hrs long
but the music is great
once in a lifetime experience

while waiting for wan to arrive

a nokia gurl took our photo

shes so cute while trying to take our pic
thats why we allowed her to take

hahahaha

after the concert I headed down to town

where me and vanessa had our supper at shaw's mos burger

slack infront of taka till 1130 and off went to her home area

where we hangout at the usual sky garden till the wee hours

2009-03-21T02:39:00.002+08:00

Is your favourite colour blue?
Do you always tell the truth?
Do you believe in outerspace?
im learning you

Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And im learning you

And if you dont mind
Can you tell me
All your hopes and fears and
Everything that you believe in
Would you make a difference in the world
I'd love for you to take me to a deeper conversation
Only you can make me

I let my guard down for you
And in time you will too

a song from Yuna-Deeper conversation

she did a marvelous performance during mosaic
the crowd was mesmerized by her voice and mellow tunes
esplanade should really invite more artist like her

and the words in this song really suits my condition now

I should just let it go, stop holding on to the memories that would never bring me anywhere. Don't make things that doesn't matter, matters. Set a new path in your life, that's that.
-words taken from someone's blog

I really agreed on that
its time for me now

movie and polaroid

2009-03-11T23:42:00.004+08:00

yet again a wet wednesday
morning had fyp with the guys
fyp seem to be fun due to lots of laughter
great bunch of ppl to work with indeed

met radd in the late afternoon
watched hes just not that into you
interesting movie to watch abt relationship
surprisingly most of the tips given are true!!!
I do admit that I did used most of them during the past
and Im sure most of u too:)
I nearly freeze myself to death in the cinema
seeejooookkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

AHHHH finally I use my polaroid for the first time!!!!
no longer virgin muahahaha
and guess where we took our pics?
its raining btw so cant blame us
gotta work on the facial expression ppl!!!!

till then.
gdnite

2009-03-10T00:19:00.002+08:00

after much success in their ARE WE BLIND YET single
now they come up with a new sExiTING hit
LOVE DI KOLAM TOKYO starring RadDiLLY HiPPY and AzHAr ShINoBIDO SukARtARO

SUPPORT YOUR LOCAL TALENT!!!!

the end

2009-03-09T01:27:00.002+08:00

WE ARE THE S.JIBENGS!!!!

featuring our no.1 hit single

ARE WE BLIND YET

gory kids

2009-03-08T01:30:00.002+08:00

so earlier today had band session
despite the rain that is
met sery afterwards to watch a movie
along the way met ekin and the guy that forgot his wallet
sorie i forgot his name!!!!
hahaha
check at marina but all the timing screening like fuck
so we went to cathay house instead

and I think cathay has the best customer service of all
and also alot of pretty ushers
one of the usher help me to hold on for my guitar
while I can enjoy my movie without anything to carry ard
thanks sweetie!!!
and I even manage to know her other fren's name
hehehe...gatal nk mampos siaa
so far I've been to other cinemas with my guitar
but no one help for safe keeping
so yeaaaa
the movie I rated it 5/5
cos it really shows the darker side of being different
compare to Twilight

and sorie to sery for missing the last train to jurong
if it wasnt for my guitar,we wouldn't missed that last train
the end.

little monsteRs

2009-03-06T23:42:00.005+08:00

so now azhar and radd are far apart
he's staying in tokyo to be a Ninja Warrior
she's staying in paris to be asian top model
still the fun never stops between these two last vogue post for azhar as tmr is his big day
to be A Ninja WArrior!!!!

all the best she says

yeaa I am the best he says

CERRKAUUU KAMUUU "meow meow claw attack!!!"
PERTIKKANN MATA LASEERRRR "one optic blast pistol!!!!"

she turned into a vampire at last POWER LEVEL 10

he looks calm cos he wants to be a NINJA WARRIOR!!!!

she HISSSSIIINNNGGGG AT him
ARGGHHHHHH her voice hurt his headddddd

OKAYYY THATS FUNNY

we're pretending again!!!!
hehehe air liur meleleh

he'll never forget her

even if he fails to be a NINJA WARRIOR

cos humilation is their fate

the end

2009-03-06T00:10:00.002+08:00

so one day azhar and radd won a lottery
and decided to have a random trip since they're rich
somewhere they're least expected to be
and they chose the next flight which is heading to NEW YORK!!!!
azhar: YESSARRR NEW YORK!!!HERE WE COME!!! KAAPOOWWWWW!!!!

radd:OKAYY!!!! IM ALL SET BITCH!!!!

at central park NY

they find a place to rest after their long journey

azhar:woooooo...Im coldddddd.ahhh hot white choc mocha!!! yum yum

radd:my eye keep on twitching!!!!ARGHHHHH!!!!

azhar:ohh I tot its normal since one small one big.hahaha!!!

thats our hotel at the back

its called the Grand Tipston hotel
sounds familiar?? of course you are!!!

azhar:Im home sick.bleaarrrghhhh

radd:me too!!bleaaarghhhh

at the end of the trip both of them fell sick

azhar was the first one to be down with shitty sickness

while radd gets more serious after that

moral of the story is

dont anyhow make up story

dats why sick till now

and less starbucks from now on for them

the end.

2009-03-03T15:40:00.002+08:00

one of japan's finest ska band Im influenced by

not like any regular ska bands

they're quite unique in their own way compare to our local scene

where most ska bands look alike with each other

ohyaa yani will be going to japan end of this wk

I hope she can get the cd that I wanted over there

have fun over there and have a safe journey!!!

see u in 2wks time:)

disappointed

2009-03-03T01:46:00.003+08:00

Im shocked the way u treated me when I asked for ur help
seriously I was numb all the way
speechless for hours
I endured the pain that amuse u alot
I try to think abt wat I did to u to make u feel that way
its isnt fair u know
all Im asking didnt cost u any money or as if u owe me anything
I know its been a long time since we talk
but still I did try to help u out when u have ur problems
at least I talk it out with u
and I didnt ask anything in return too

sometimes I feel that ur using me
talk to me when no one's ard
ask me to amuse u when ur down
hack,I even travelled down to ur workplace
just to accompany u for lunch during the shitty weather
remember how drenched I was meeting u

fo what is worth,our friendship is dying
Im sorry

2009-02-28T12:15:00.002+08:00

I think most of us can relate to this song
anyway they're coming on 15th march
@ esplanade chillout stage
they're the first band I played along side with
few years ago when indie pop on the rise

Mocca- Life keeps on turning

We've come to the final story
All of it has passed behind me
With my smile and now I'm ready
Or my next step again

I know I can't drown forever
I've got a life that I have to deal with
I believe that life keeps on turning
And I'm here just to wait and sing
Yes, I'm here just to wait and sing..

Loosing you is not the end of the world
But it's true that it definitely hurts
That it definitely hurts!

When I wake up in the morning
One smile wipes away my yearning
A messages has come arriving
Secret admirer strikes again
And this life keeps on turning

2009-02-27T05:18:00.002+08:00

came back abt an hour ago
look at the time now
I cant sleep now cos my hair is still wet after showering
I was hoping the entire nite that she would text me but fat hope I guess
anyway it was the most boring nite ever
nothing exciting happen earlier

sunday gig at esplanade bands line up seem to be interesting
the zozi gona be performing
surely alot of u guys gona turn up rite??
see yaaa
:)

The Rain

2009-02-25T18:56:00.003+08:00

I was otw home from skool
but caught up in the heavy rain
too heavy and too many lightnings ard
so i took shelter under one of the blocks
I decided to text her to try my luck
surprisingly she replied!!!!
who says rainy weather can bring sumone's feelings down?

I like the way she replied me
she sound so happy and excited
shes glad that I texted her out of sudden
still each time it rains,will remind me of her:)

theres so many things I wanted to tell her
but I restrain myself cos I dont want to spoil the moment
like how I wish to be more closer to her
like how I wish to be able to learn about her
like how I wish she woud appear in my dreams just like 2 nites ago
like how I wish we could go out again only that its not raining
like how I wish she could see me becoming a better person

and when it rains......

2009-02-22T23:21:00.006+08:00

yesterday melfraps performed @ music garage
the crowd was somehow unfavourable to me
mayb most of them were like underage kids??
still there was abit of moshing which seem to be a surprise for us
cos our music doesnt suit for moshing
anyway I hope all of you who came to support us did enjoy the show
eventhough the sound system was shittyyy
seriouslyyy shityyyy
and sorie that we screwed our set
we'll improve the next show
anyway wat is done is done
cheers to all who came!!!!
I LOVE EVERY ONE OF YOU!!!!

lan pls smile like u mean it!!!!
for god's sake pls smile lan!!!!

lan!!!! smile la!!!
CB!!!
hahahaha

too tired??

wan and his gfs

super pose!!!

thank you for rushing from admiralty!!!
really appreaciated for your time
yes yes i know i owe u alot:)

;)

different mouth pose

half of us at sheesha

amcm sista?

lan muke cramp

mayb wanna shit?

liana like a skool gurl

listen obediently to others

lastlyyy pls tune b4 the show

hahahaha

till then
CHEERS!!!!

2009-02-19T18:38:00.002+08:00

seriously im broke for the weekend
not sure how to spend for the weekend
gig on sat and after that??
where to go??
woahhh fuck up at the moment
think think think....

2009-02-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

earlier today I had the worst injuries yet
received alot of abdominal stitch
mayb bcos of lack in warm-ups or isit the blazing weather
wasted half the day controlling the pain

tmr fyp meeting early in the morning
such troublesome yet we're lucky to get such easy-going advisors
and after that we plan for adventure at punggol(mlm jumaat!!!)
alot of outing had been planned by us
like a day survival in ubin and etc etc
I wont be surprise if one day I'll get into trouble with these guys
still its a great way to spend my time-constraint holidays

vannessa sent me a sweet text msg in the evening
which makes me quite speechless for a moment
hahahaha

something bothers me for this coming weekend
Im not sure what it is but surely its making me feel agitated
:/

2009-02-09T23:12:00.002+08:00

vannessa texted me asking to club at powerhouse this sat
she said its free and each person get at least 5drinks
Im not sure if Im able to due to the current situation
mayb I'll go if theres a place to stay for the night
cos sunday morning got jamming session with the band
and next week is the gig
seems like alot of people are coming for our gig
we'll try to entertain as much as we can for u guys
thank you all
for those have not yet get the tix u can contact any of us
its 8bucks btw

Im getting more and more stress with alot of things
happy days please come soon

2009-02-07T00:53:00.002+08:00

finally met radd for a movie date
its been awhile
so we watched underworld:rise of the lycans
I rated it 8/10
ate at sakura city hall after that
whereby someone forget to buy me something if im not wrong
hahaha
ended up we bought ourselves some Rasta's accessories at marina
watched UB by the bay behind the stage
anddddddd I forget my gig tix are inside radd's bag
makes alot of hassle for ppl siaaa

heres the poster for my coming gig(tanx hidayah!!)
melfraps gonna play at 4.30pm
tix at 8bucks
interested pls tag me or just contact my no. 91443023

CHEERS!!!

2009-02-05T22:18:00.003+08:00

view from the bench at the sky garden ard 2am
at toa payoh

I still need more improvement in my driving
anyway each driving session theres always something interesting happened
like today I drove the car halfway across hougang trying to catch up with bus 854
and due to this I arrived home in half an hour time despite the usual 1hr
next session is on 20th which means I need to really go for regular session in march

now I know the meaning of hardwork

2009-02-01T03:27:00.002+08:00

so earlier sat afternoon went to lan's house
for band session on songs to play on our gig
instead most of the time we played his PS3
well at least I won some of the match

later in the evening met vannessa
its been a long time since we hangout
and off we went to boon lay
to pass a present to her fren
and we greeted the month of feb at boon lay bus int
where we took the last bus towards toa payoh
its a long ride and I almost freezed myself
I dunno how she could sleep comfortly beside me
as shes wearing a so-called tubetop and a mini skirt
-.-

when we reached there the place kinda dead
its 1 in the morning
just like in the game L4D
seriouslyy creepyy
and I dunno why I keep on talking abt ghost
she brought me to a sky garden located near her place
where we talked abt our lives and enjoy the peaceful view
reminds me of marina barrage at 4am
how I wish I could just lay down and watch the clouds till dawn

mayb during these holiday I'll be going clubbing
I know most of you gonna go like..."serious?"
but yeaa
cos the gurls seem to be planning
I'll just tag along cos I know its not my thing
its just for experience
and plss I wont be like lining up to enter okayy
I already told them if I were to go
only as a VIP

2009-01-30T01:17:00.002+08:00

IM PISSED COS MY DRIVING INSTRUCTOR CANCELLED MY SESSIONS FOR THE 3RD TIME!!!!
IM LEFT WITH 9WKS TILL MY TP!!!!

so anyway been 2 days straight meeting sery
and at the usual place too
THANKS FOR THE MOVIE TREAT SERY!!!!
*bows up and down x3

im beat now
tmr gona be a long day
gdnite ppl

2009-01-27T01:51:00.001+08:00

sentosa outing anyone?

2009-01-26T01:26:00.002+08:00

its been 3 days im away from my comfy bed
fri went to shafiq's bangloo(unsure of spelling) at pasir ris rise for bbq
its the first grand bbq I ever attended to
cos the atmosphere is just like the The OC
where rich kids lives
and most of us came by cars
race to marina barrage at 4 in the morning
and the scenery was surprisingly breathtaking
it was cold and windy
we did some catching up while chilling by the bay
and I realized that I should have gone to tp instead
cos u know why
I think I made more friends there rather in my own skool
see I told u that Im at the wrong place

sat had family's(mum's side) bbq at pasir ris beach
I still dont get it why do my mum loves to bring alot of stuffs
my family bond with each other abit weird
we bond thru sarcasm and jokes
and I think my grandpa is superman
he can carry a full load of water bucket by himself
despite his old age
impressive siaaa

Melfraps gona be playing @ music garage
on 21st feb(saturday)
mixture of rock/indie gig
time yet to confirm
tix @ 8bucks
I'll update more soon
cos I just returned

and Im adapting to a new healthy lifestyle now
no ciggs no alcohol
things to do during my holiday:
attend gym sessions regularly
jog at least twice a wk
get my car lisence

thats all

2009-01-23T01:08:00.002+08:00

this vacation's useless
these white pills aren't kind
i've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive
i missed the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9
and slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights

this is wat im feeling these days

2009-01-22T00:32:00.002+08:00

hours later anatomy will be my last module/lesson
of this semester and 10wks of holidays awaits me
past few days had alot of outings
fri gona have bbq(fren's)
sat gona have chalet and bbq(family)
i think im gonna be away from home for awhile

saw pics of my old frens in the afternoon
they seem to enjoy their lives now
how i wish to turn back the time
where i didnt break our pact 4yrs ago
atika would be laughing at me if she knows my situation now
then mira and followed by others
all these years im living a double life
and they are the only ones know me that well
just to be with sumone i tot i knew
faith is like a ciggarette to me now
slowly decreasing until u completely lost it all
yet im still upholding my faith
god knows when i would really snapped one day

do you care if i don't know what to say
will you sleep tonight or will you think of me
will i shake this off pretend its all okay
that there someone out there who feels just like me
there is

2009-01-20T22:47:00.001+08:00

I HATE PRETENDERS

2009-01-18T01:26:00.002+08:00

pic was taken on fri by sery
at boat quay while we're having dinner

sat went out roaming around town
walking aimlessly
from orchard to bugis
sorie hazel cant meet u as that place was crowded with ppl
yes @ scape-.-
maybe next time at a different situation we'll meet again:)

THIS IS UNBELIEVABLE!!!!
I CANT BELIEVE THAT MY CUZZIN IS MY FREN'S FREN!!!!
AWKWARD SHITS SIAAAA
fyi I dont really get along with relatives
especially older cuzzins

well it all happened at kampong glam cafe
and our group started to get bigger and bigger
and worst my cuzzin one of them joined us
freaky awkwardness

at least u know that I won't care less

2009-01-16T23:12:00.002+08:00

im currently at SB one fullerton with sery
shes blogging abt sumthing I think beside me
go check go hahaha

windy all day long
weather did made me moodless
I just realized that things arent what it used to be
Im left with exactly a year till i graduated from skool
I had lost lots of great frens directly/indirectly last yr
being 2 yrs in rp makes me realized that at most of the time
Im not meant to be there seriously
many "why" questions I ask myself
if only I went to the dream skool I ever wanted
maybe I'll get what I want over the past 2 yrs??

i dunt think i belong here
:/

2009-01-14T22:47:00.002+08:00

im fully recovered now

i feel like making sumone else life miserable

2009-01-11T01:22:00.002+08:00

just as I tot my fever had gone
now im facing a new virus
having flu now on a SATURDAY!!!
packed with tissues as I went to town
met sery and went to ct hall where we had
our dinner of macd by the bay of the chillout stage
acoustic performance was superb
great covers from oasis,radiohead and etc etc

just in case those caught the flu bug too
in advanced: IM SORIE!!!
hahaha
especially to u who share drinks with me
u know who u are!!!

4types of pills
1 purpose
and now the effect is super drowsyyyy
gdnite!!!!

2009-01-10T01:38:00.002+08:00

my body is still adjusting to my skool days time
so u can notice me with large eye bags nowadays
so after skool went for sheesha session
at our normal place
this time radd was a new person to join the club
suppose to be alot to turn up but then there were 5
was fun,chilling and slackyy evening
ohh and the cats are so fuzzy wuzzy
their fur are so well kept and clean
just like friskies advertisement cats

ohh ohh sumone had a major shopping spree
ehem ehem;)
u should have bought that!!!

2009-01-08T22:45:00.001+08:00

HIATUS FOR NOW
BEEN STRUCKED WITH MAJOR FEVER

2009-01-07T11:57:00.002+08:00

breaking down it is
as time goes on and on
weaker I have become
going out for a couple of hrs seem so hard
now endure I shall the best

wish me luck in one piece
good day

2009-01-06T09:08:00.002+08:00

im currently having lesson now
its so boring till i got a chance to blog abt
SILOSO BEACH PARTY pics
held on 31st dec
awesome party indeed yeaHH

THE END!!!!

2009-01-05T23:37:00.002+08:00

SKOOL REOPENED!!!!
as expected im too lazy to do anything in my grp
so i came in late
whole day just surf the net and smoked thru presentation
i was surprisingly too lucky cos the faci didnt ask me any qns

after skool visited syirah at work
she look really hot and pretty in that black trench coat
had my dinner with her at LJS centrepoint
accompanied back to her department after that

went off to meet sery at Tangs
suppose to watch movie but then didnt
so we just walk ard town
from taka to wheelock to heeren
practically we're all over the place

anddd nowww im tired
goodnight

2009-01-04T04:26:00.002+08:00

so the first sat of the year anddd
the last sat of my holiday was spent
again till the wee hours
just came back actually from town

so meet up with sery ard 10plus
sorie for coming down late
was too bz doing stuffs at home hehehe
went to have dinner at macd centrepoint
and head to PS after that
meeting nad ard that place
where we watched twilight for a midnite movie
hahaha this is actually the 3rd time watching it
still love alice in that movie
ohh tanx to sery's fren hamza for the free tix
thanx mate

after movie head down to somerset whereby
we took cab from cineleisure
tanx to nad for the cab ride
i'll bring the change back when ur working
she works at marina sq
the place where at least once a wk i will slack either at sb or
window shop ard
and guess wat
when i reached home ard 4am
none of my family members are at home
-.-

skool starts tmr siaa
i dunno how or will i able to cope for 3wks of skool left
holiday mood is still in my mind
it trance me to my own sloppy heckcare side
anyway to survive in skool i'll just have to come on time for class
that is if i can wake up early

one more thing to note
DONT TALK TO ME EARLY IN THE MORNING IN SKOOL!!!
call me arrogant or watsoever
im just not in the mood
i swear its true

okayy bye bye

2009-01-03T04:04:00.002+08:00

so my day(fri) started off meeting sery
had lunch at sakura
whereby i had tom yam noodle
i rated it 5/5
the gravy was just rite
perfectO!!!!
headed to marina sq SB
where i helped her install some software
into her lappy
feeling bored so we went to esp
to watch this old timer band playing
Retro Groove
they did live up to their name
MARVELOUS!!!
ohh ron was one of the soundman at that time
and met shafiq too

after the show shafiq head to homeclub
while me and sery waited for azam and wati to arrive
we slacked and took crazy pics behind the stage area
till 2am we decided to leave the place
i hate waiting for NR
seriously i dont mind the journey home
but to wait for that bus to arrive is like ARGGHHHH
ard 3.30am reached home
whereby i received a shocking news from azlan who have
a certain sicko in his mind abt a fren of mine
woo dat just rhyme

ohh pics will be posted soon enough
they're with wati i think

till then
gdmorning

2009-01-02T12:08:00.004+08:00

was up all night during the first day
spent some time alone for awhile

reflecting what I had done till today

wondering if ur asleep at that time

it was cold and it was perfect

cloudy skies project clearly my imagination

sound of perfect silence was just too perfect

I would be lying if your not my liberation

and all I could ever do is to miss you

like its meant to be

I can't do anything

except be in love with you

all I ever wish is to meet the cut

listen to all my promises that I've made

I could buy all the gold but

i'll trade everything for a movie date

2009-01-01T23:18:00.001+08:00

ALL I CAN SAY IS
"ITS A BITTERSWEET NEW YEAR!!!"

pics will be out when i got the pics
CHEERS

2008-12-31T17:31:00.002+08:00

just woke up from an afternoon nap
damn my head hurts now
a few hours later the party gona start
gona start packing my stuffs now

WISHING ALL OF U A HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
GOD BLESS YAA
CHEERS!!!!

lets partayy till dawn ppl!!!
till then
:)

2008-12-30T21:12:00.002+08:00

SO FINALLY I PASSED MY FTT!!!!
1 step closer for my lisence
now i just need to get used to driving
hopefully im able to get it before april
or best before my bday month

WOOO WEEE HOW HAPPY I AM TODAY
PONYO PONYO *azhar backflipping

im having abit of gastric now
mayb bcos i didnt eat at all in the afternoon
and during the bus ride from admiralty nearly
suck up all my energy
well at least i get to see sumone with a bad hair day
or isit just a norm for her
hahaha

TMR SILOSO BEACH PARTAYYYY!!!!
a great way to celebrate my passed test
we drink,we dance and we're gona have fun

break the rules,we're going to hell anyway
:)

2008-12-29T21:32:00.004+08:00

it rained early in the morning
didnt go to the gym as planned
cos zam texted saying hes not going
so i just workout at home
while waiting for 2pm for TTT

ohhh a SPECIAL TANX to syirahh
i really owe u one this time

watched Yes Man again with radd
ohh its the 2nd movie we watched this wk
at least its not early in the morning AT LEAST!!!!
the main actress ride a vespa which is so cool for a cute chix like her

my socks are ORANGE!!!!

u know who u are

im still not sure wat to bring for the partayyyy

2008-12-29T10:58:00.002+08:00

1/4 of my clothes are green
i just realized it today

2008-12-28T22:04:00.002+08:00

the feeling of ripping one's head off
its common when ur in a fury state
dats wat i felt earlier today
if ur an able bodied person u should work to get money
dont beg plss
ur lower than prostitute for god sake!!!

3more days to the beach party!!!
the next 2days i'll be waking up early
gym in the morning and theory prac and FTT in the afternoon
hopefully everything goes smoothly
seriously i addicted to driving
cant wait to start driving to skool
if my parents arent using the car dat is

till then

2008-12-28T00:51:00.002+08:00

entry abt yesterday(sat)
so early morning at 1030 radd gave a wake up call
sat morning siaaa-.-
i tot she was crying or wat siaa
cos she sounded like one kind arr
so funny chuckle chuckle chuck chuck
hahahaha
so we met ard 1130 at cwp to watch twilight
movie was great so i dunt mind watching again
alice is always cute as ever
spikey spikey spike spike spike hair
and i didnt attend the wedding ceremony
instead i'll be going tmr
so yeaa

radd ohh radd
u owe me food on 31st okayyy
hahaha
tk kisah tk kisah
mesti mesti
PONYO PONYO
;)

2008-12-20T01:22:00.002+08:00

so earlier today(fri)morning
or not cos its nearly 12pm
awakened by a text from nini:)
which really made my day
i know shes always bz with her work and all
especially xmas is just next week
she had to work till 12am for 2 straight days
hope shes alrite though shes always acting strong

dear radd had been silence throughout the past few days
im not sure wats wrong but i hope wat i predicted isnt true
i really miss her sarcasm and her verbal abuse of words on me
at least i got sumone to bitch with abt how ugly ppl are
and sharing comments on UG
yaa i know i sound like a gurl
but hey UG isnt bad at all
the show teach u how to dress to impress
and also the meaning of not being perfect

SO RADD PLS COME BACK!!!!!!!
I MISS YOU!!!!!

had a session with melfraps in the evening
discussing abt new cover songs to play
and also to record our own songs for demo
i hope we can at least complete by feb
cos in march mocca is coming to s'pore
so mayb i could let them listen to wat we're sound like
for old time sake rite
so melfraps pls pls pls.....

2008-12-17T00:08:00.005+08:00

so last nite went to watch twilight with sery
god knows how long we havent had any movie outing
tanx sery!!!
i think its the most superb movie abt vampires
i rated it 10/10 if ur a fan of monsters/superhero/romance/trilogical maniac?
did i spell trilogy correct?who cares bitch...hahaha

outside esp where we made our x'mas wish
see those dangling stuffs

otw to fullerton

starbucks session till late at fullerton

tanx to sery's frens for the venti size drinks

i wish i live in fullerton hotel

since almost every wk i spend my day at ct hall

at least once a day or more
yea i know mcm scene kid kepe?!

hahaha

well FYI not like those typical mats/minahs

cos to me ct hall is like a centralized area

u can go to town or boat/clark quay or bugis easily

and i usually walk;)

alrite now update on ameera's bday!!!!

sorie it took so long to blog it
below are pics which speaks a thousand over reasons

for her special day

yay!!!!

ameera(left) syirah-san(right)

before it started to drizzle

ameera's loves the perfumes scent

bday gurl!!!!

everlast shoes

its cake time!!!!

black forest from swensen

yum yum!!!

syirah-san looks drunk
at least we're happy right?
hahaha

see how chubby im getting

and im having problem dat nite:(

sorie gurls

the place where

we chilled,we sang,we celebrated

till the next time

2008-12-15T01:28:00.002+08:00

FINALLY RADD turned 18!!!
HAPPY BDAY BITCH!!!
hahaha:)

thanks for ur company
so today was indeed a very long day for us
first of all while i was on the train to meet radd at yishun
i remembered dat i forgot to lock my doors
so we quickly take cab to my crib
lucky the door was closed yet not locked-.-

so we're off to van's bday chalet
where we find dat we're the first of her frens
to come to her chalet
we ate a little as we were fulled
and left just as b4 the rain started to get heavy
took cab again to pasir ris mrt
cos i was too lazy to wait for the bloody bus to arrive

we met nini who was waiting for us at esplanade
after she end work
shes such a sweet cuzzin to radd despite her bz daily schedule
she made a large poster of pics of radd and her
when they were small up to now
and a cute boxer for radd
nini was abit paisey at dat moment abt the boxer
but who cares rite? me and radd??
we're a bunch of lunatics whose happily living in our own world
anyway u told me the day b4 we met of wat ur getting her
hahaha

chilled at macd marina where nini had her meal
and i gave radd her present dat i made for her
DYI okayyy except the pretty greenish pedant i got for her
the bday card i made took me 3hrs to be done
and the envelope took was 15mins
hahaha
all came from one magazine and a couple of postcards
and lots of imagination of mixtures of colors
and important of all radd's fav. theme to be included

after dat we went to play pool as radd wanted to
its so hilarious cos none of us are good at dis game
at dis point of time nini was kinda quite
dunno why
???

below are pics of my 2nd part of ice cream day!!!
went to haagen dazs ard 9pm at esplande outlet
service is excellent
i recommend all to go there
price is acceptable too
we had 3scoopes and others(see below)
cost ard 22bucks

sweetly sin

look how long her beads are

dis is to ward off evil spirits
yet i dunt think she'll be needing it

cos we're devils ourselves

2008-12-12T00:06:00.003+08:00

CHunk FeSt!!!!
happened last sat
this is just part 1 of ice cream day to me

no wonder i look chubby
full of sweet sins dat day

note to remember:

pumpkin cheesecake is the only cheesecake i wont go for again

look how hungry she was-.-

entertainment while in the Q

ben and jerrys done!!!
agreed rara?

2008-12-09T18:56:00.002+08:00

so i skipped class today
no point going cos i gt the feel dat not alot of ppl will turn up
and todays module is PCB which is the least module im concern abt
i'll guess im staying home for the whole day
tmr no skool again
i know dat i've been not updating my entry for some time
im waiting for my pics from radd
after i get all the pics
then i will upoad all the pics i had during the wkends

and and yesterday HRH day
early in the morning abt 830am
elfi called me?!
asking wat time the morning prayer start?!
hahaha HELLOOO elfi asking me this qns?!
was shocked and told him i was still in bed
dunno wat time it starts and hung up
hahahaha
FYI i nvr go for morning prayers on HRH
ahahaha
and at nite i ask him again why u ask such random qns
he told me dat he wanted to go back hm after morning prayers
whereas he was having breakfast at downtown east
WTF rite!!!
hahahaha

okay im bored
so i predict my future now.....hmmmm
by next wk
im gona be so broke
fri jamming with a punkrock band at douby ghoat
sat unknown
sun gt van's bday chalet
maybe i'll sleepover if alot of familiar faces ard
mon is radd's bday
woohoo me:/

2008-12-03T22:34:00.002+08:00

2 days - fri and sat 28th and 29th
accompanied khai at the merchandise booth
was fun though as i was too pissed of wat had happened
so to occupy my mind was just at the booth
which i think most of the ppl i know came by
even my BROTHERS!!!!
surprisingly ehhh
i guess local music scene will be always be in our blood

so today went out with radd
watched wild child
i rate it 8/10
cos i just love how socialite bitch abt others

i did sum shopping
hahaha
hobby i guess when i have xtra cash
just have the urge to spend on sumthing

and talking abt socialite
i saw my socialites peeps
feat. in one of the pages of JUICE mag
ahhh yesss the partayyy ppl!!!
i miss them so much
miss drinking with them
and enjoying the nite life
still im not a clubber
just dat i enjoy drinking with them

seriously shit
skool is such an ass
i need liquor
i need the dark side of me out

2008-12-02T00:48:00.002+08:00

hectic wkend!!!!
arrghhhh im still piss off!!!!
cant get over it

music was great
ppl were fine

ameera's advanced bday celebration was fun
eventhough im still in a pathetic situation
sorie ameera and syirah

and everytime we hangout is always by the bay
ironic isnt it

ohh i look so ugly in syirah's lj pics
tskkkk

till the next time:)

2008-11-27T23:18:00.002+08:00

been sick for the past few days
flu come and go
didnt go to skool today
cos wasnt feeling dat well
its sucks when plans are cancelled at the last min
trying to have fun on tmr onwards despite being sick
gigs and chalet here i come
still....im restless

last week and this week were so much difference
screww:/

2008-11-23T21:48:00.002+08:00

its sunday
the day where most ppl would love to stay at hm
but im used to go out everyday
so its like an itch stayin at hm

went to changi beach in the afternoon
didnt stay for too long as it was starting to drizzle
and PHEEWWWWW it rained as if the whole s'pore
undergoing thunderstorm

nini texted saying maybe she cant make it
for the coming wkend
ohh man
why am i not surprise lately?
-.-

im not sure if this week i'll come to every lesson
skool's been such a drag cos im on holiday mode
holiday mode = fun + sins + music

disagree?
fuck off u cunt!!!

is there anyone in my skool have the same
music interest??